Argh... I'm so annoyed with people. Ever since I have started living the single life (which has not progressed to anything spectacular, let me tell you)... I'm having a closer look at who's in my life right now and I'm just sick and tired of the fakeness that happens around me. Or of people who say they are there but they just don't really reach out... they just say that and when you finally decide to open up they make the whole situation about them. They say stuff like:"Oh. Welcome to my life a week ago... blah blah blah (tell me a 20 minute story about them that basically removes focus on what I wanted to talk about)" or "Well, I totally know what you're talking about." "Really?" "Well, not really... but that's life. You'll be fine." AAAAAARGH!
At the same time, I just don't want to talk to people because all I'm thinking about these days is how I don't know who I am these days because for the first 5 years of my 20s... I was in a marriage-like relationship, defining who I was in that relationship. I have no clue who I am without Andrew sometimes. I think I do, but I fall back and realize that I am even more confused without him. So pathetic I know! No one wants to hear this shit, no one wants to listen to me talk about it. So here you go Blogspot... enjoy... Grey's Anatomy puts this feeling in two very distinct categories with which I indentify myself with quite well... The Scary and Damaged as well as the Dark and Twisted. Hooray for McTherapy!
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