Fighting Cancer...

I am feeling pretty liberated these days: I have spent a few months getting rid of what a good friend of mine calls "cancer" - just abusive and negative people/situations. It was very hard to really plant my feet down and fight off the leeches I've opened up to. No, I'm not victimizing myself, I think of myself as a very open and accepting person - which I find a very great thing about me. However I believe that I had to learn the hard way how to really solidify my boundaries and listen to myself when I feel uncomfortable about certain cancers that are draining my energy. And once you let the leeches in too deep, the harder it is to pull them off. But, it was a great fight to win. I am finding myself just really grounding myself, and taking control. I was not giving myself enough worth and that energy was being manifested by people who prey on that sort of thing. I was not myself, and it was showing in so many areas in my life - my teaching, my music, my apartment... you can definitely get blinded by it.

I now see so many great things for me, I am going to do amazing things and I am happy. I have SUCH amazing people around me now. I love them all to bits and they actually believe in me and want to see me succeed, as I want to help THEM succeed. There is no competition, there is no territory to be claimed, there is no ownership on each other - or unrealistic loyalties... just amazing support and admiration from AND for every person I have in my life right now. And there is love for what we do, not a desperation or a fear of failure. Just do. Walls will block us but with these amazing people in my life I actually see us just pushing through them and keep going.

So I guess I'm writing this to thank those people who have been there as I was fighting through the walls I have had in front of me and as I was struggling to rip those leeches off. You know who you all are! Heart.